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Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Questions, Questions, Questions????

Really how do we really deal with "unanswered" questions???? I'm really trying to figure this out and wrap my finger around it without losing my mind. Lately I've really been trying to sort certain "unanswered" questions out in my mind and it is just not happening. I don't know if I'm secretl stressing over things I will never have the answers too. But I can't get them out of my head..... what do I do??? Seek out these people who have the answers??? One person that is not possible with...he passed away. I have to most unanswered questions for him.
Sometimes I feel like I won't completely move on until I get the answers, but is it possible. I feel like someone knows the answers besides him. Honestly I'm thinking about finding a pyshic to help me. Do you guys believe in things like that. I want to believe so I can get some relief.
But for that one person who is still here won't answer the questions I need him to answer and I feel I will never know the truth. Do I really want to know the truth, will it just hurt me more, will it make me realize the person he really his. Was I really fooled that whole time???
Aghhh I just don't know what to do sometime but just sit and cry and answer the question the way I would want the answers to be, but that is not life or realistic. So I guess I will Just go on living life with "unanswered" quesitons.


Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Broken Heart

This is how my heart feels at this point! I really don't even know what to do with myself. I absolutely hate this feeling. I have felt this only one other time in my life, and never thought I'd have to feel it again. When I'm upset I get really sick to my stomach and can't eat or keep food down. I put on this smile and tough girl persona in front of everyone but its killing me inside.  I get why everyone feels this way but they don't see him the way I do. And yes sometimes things aren't the best, but what relationship is. You have to work at things. I just don't know what to do. I'm so close with my parents and I truly care what they think and how they feel, we are just a close knit family. But I don't want to have to go thru my life saying "what if"  and I have definitely questioned one other "what if"  in my life many times when my ex passed away. Would he still be here if I had given him another chance? I can't answer that, and I don't want to say that to myself again. I honest to God don't think I could handle it emotionally if I lost someone else I loved so much and had that "what if" thought. 
I have cried so much in the last two days this is how my eyes feel. I know this isn't like my normal posts but I just need to write this down and get it off my chest. I know things need to change for them to be better, but is he willing to put in the work? or just see it as winning or losing!! Our relationship is NOT a game, its not about who wins or loses its about both of us winning. Do any of you guys have break up advice??? I've had my friends to keep me busy this past month but these last few days have been the worst. It probably didn't help that I talked to him about our feelings but I needed it. We both want it but don't know how to get it or change each others ways. And if you can't give you can't get.
I just hate that my heart feels this way. Broken, alone, hurt, scratched, cut, shattered, not whole. Do we try to make things work ONE MORE TIME? I want to SO bad, but will it be different? Can he change? Can I change? I guess only time will tell and I hope time doesn't run out. I may be on here more then normal just to occupy my time.
Thank you for listening or reading even if you don't know me. This just sucks so much and I hate hurting so I hate to hurt someone else and have them feel the way I do. Well I'm off to try and not cry anymore!!
xoxox and a broken heart

Thursday, June 2, 2011

Angry Bird Nails

OK so I guess I'm a little slow when it comes to finding out about games, because I guess Angry Birds has been out for a while and there are many different versions. Well I recently found the game while going thru some apps and I decided to try it out.... BAD decision, because now I'm obsessed with this game! I kill my phone battery constantly playing it and I get so frustrated when those damn pigs laugh at me when I can't smash them!!! AGHHHH! 
And as all of you know I'm also somewhat obsessed with YouTube and I love watching nail tutorials and I love makeup ones too. One of the girls that I subscribe to is IHaveACupcake and she does the coolest nails. So thanks to her she helped me see how to do Angry bird nails.
Here is one hand that I did. I painted the pigs too!

Here's the other hand with the rest of the characters.
It was pretty hard to do. And very time consuming!! But it was so worth it...I loved them and I got a lot of compliments on them. Having the birds painted on my nails DID NOT aid in helping me beat any levels easier!!! Darn it!!!! I have downloaded every version that is available so I will be entertained for quite some time!!!


Neon Green Fridges and Zebra Chairs!!

So a few posts ago I said I was updating my salon and I have been, its just been taking me alot longer then I thought! So there is going to be TONS of pictures for you guys to look at!!! Yeah picture time!!

This is what my fridge looked like before.

I taped off the top cause I painted it a purple color.
This is the color green I used its called "key lime"
Heres the fridge painted first coat....its coming along

Heres the purple I used its called "rich plum"

Yea!!!! It turned out just how I wanted and I even
added the chewed up gum magnets that I love!

This here is a stray cat the we feed, we named her "Shimmy"
She has this really weird hair loss disorder but I looks
like she has muscules on her arms lol but its just
her hair missing! She keeps me company while I paint!

I found these two chairs at a garage sale for $2.00 each!!! CHEAP but they
See look how nasty there legs are!

NOW CLEAN!!!! I used 2 Mr. Clean Magic Erasers to clean
these chairs.

The cushions were just a plain blue.. not my style! Lol they are pretty squishy
but you can see the blue tape covering some of the ripped parts so
im going to cover them

I painted one a light blue color called "Aqua"

The other one I painted a color called "Grape"

Well crap now I have this huge "grape" paint mark on my arm

Here they are together!!! SO CUTE!

This is Mama she will lay on anything you put on the floor and of
course she had to test EVERY cushion out before resting on this one!

And this is Bubba he loves to lay on paper! He thinks he's a King!
My mom was trying to make an outline of my cushion to we
could sew them.

Here is the finally product....I THINK IM IN LOVE!!!!!!!
I want a whole set of this in diff colors I may just go back to that
garage sale and see if they have any more left!

I will be taking pictures of my shop so you guys can see what everything looks like all put together! Stay tuned to see my newest obsession of angry birds! Thanks to IHaveCupCake on youtube I painted my nails like angry birds!!! SO CUTE can you say I have time on my hands? lol

xoxo Neon green fridges and Zebra Chairs

Monday, May 2, 2011

Have you ever seen a blue cheetah?

So we all know my love of animal print!!! Well tonight it was time to change up the nails! I had this one color on it was the Sally Hansen Xtreme wear in Rockstar Pink the pic doesn't do it much justice. It is a very pretty sparkly color but it is a B*!@H to get off!!! Let me tell you! I thought I was gonna need a jackhammer to get it off but I did!
Such a pretty colored glitter it has like pinks blues purples and silvers in it!
"Rockstar Pink"
So since it took me about an hour to get it off, I figured I'd go with something a little easier this time! Cause you know me I can't commit to one nail polish design all week(unless its glitter, I let that chip off lol) and I haven't done cheetah nails in a while so I figured... why not! I used the Sally Hansen Xtreme Wear in White On as my base color(I forgot to take a pic of it) 

This is One coat of White On
Second coat of White On
These are the 3 blues I picked out (from left to right)
"The Real Teal" "Pacific Blue"(It smells like a SKUNK) & "Blue Me Away!"
"The Real Teal", Pacific Blue", & "Blue Me Away!"

Start by just randomly putting dots on ur nails, they can be messy the messier the better
I dont know what black I used the name was rubbed off. Take your dotting tool (found at any beauty supply store or EBay) and make little "half C's" around the blue dots. randomly place little black messy dots too to look more like Cheetah print!
Then just apply your favorite top coat and you are all done! So now have you ever seen a blue cheetah.....YES!!!!!! lol I hope you enjoyed the little pic tutorial. If you guys try them let me know and post pics so I can see! If you have any requests let me know and I will see what I can do!

wild blue cheetah nails

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

First LUSH purchase!

I can't believe I forgot to load these pictures and tell you about what I ordered from LUSH, such yummy yummy stuff. I love that everything is fresh handmade cosmetics. There are so many things I want to buy from them but for the time being I only got a few things.
This is The Comforter Bubble Bar
Cozy blackcurrant embrace for dreary days
The Comforter is the bubble bar you want when the sky turns grey and you fell like cocooning in a pile of huge, fluffy blankets. Take a deep breath, crumble our blackcurrant and cypress bar, and sink into the massive pink bubbles for a warm, encompassing hug.
I love this bubble bath bar. It looks like a hot pink cinnamon roll! Honestly this thing is so big that I break it into 4 different squares, so I can use it more times! and just a 1/4 of the bar makes SO MANY bubbles. I cant imagine how many bubbles it would create if I put the whole thing in. You might not even be able to find me in the bathroom! lol Ive used it but did not take any pic of the bubbles so when I use it next I will take some pics and it turns ur bath PINK! FUN!!! Oh and this makes your skin SO SO SO SO SOFT! I cant even describe the feeling of how this feels on your skin! AMAZING!!!

 This is the Think Pink
Bold and Sassy Sweetie
While it is sweet. Think Pink certainly isn't shy. Our little pink bombshell is big in vanilla, tonka bean and neroli personality. This combo if oils gives sweetness a bit of a saucy edge. Be sure to pop one in your bath when you need a little boost of confidence. Watch out world!
This little ball is a bath bomb or like a bath fizz and it has a little surprise inside... look at the picture below to see what I mean! I was sure surprised. You can cut this in half but I decided to put the whole bomb in my water. It also turns your water pink!!!
Its a pretty big ball! and it smells so yummy
Well poo the lighting was not very good in this picture to capture the pretty pink that it was.
Ahhh there we go! Such a pretty pink with a little bit of leg!!! lol Do you see those fun little pink dots??????
Little pink hearts!!!!! So cute. They are made of paper and they dissolve in water after a while. They do start to lose there pretty pink color after a while as the start to dissolve, but the water does stay that pretty pink! I did not know there were little hearts inside when I ordered this, when I put it in the water and I saw these little things floating in the water and I was surprised but then happy to see they were hearts!!!

I will be ordering more of there bath products, Ive been taking alot of baths lately and reading some good books! I just started one last week Love You to Death by Shannon K. Butcher. I seriously cant put this book down I only have 48 pages left and I'm pretty sure that I will finish it tonight!!! I really like romance-mystery novels. Well Im off to take a bath and finish my book!

Monday, April 11, 2011

Oh feet love!

I was looking at Kandee Johnsons blog today bc I love her so very much! My bf says I have a girl crush! I believe he's right. There's a website she found called and they have some crazy shoes and accesories. I wanted to check these shoes out myself! Holy Moly I would love to have some of these shoes on my feet!
These are called Eggs and Bacon! How cute is that!
These are called Can't touch this. I love the see thru purple heel
These are called Fist of steel. I think Im just drawn to that funky heel!
These are called Geycha goddess! There is a little house in the heel!!! I want
These are called Miaow! I love the purple plum color and the little
cat on the side... and bonus it has a matching handbag.
Miaow Tote! cute cute cute!
And I'm saving the best for last, once I saw these shoes I wanted to wear them, eat them, smell them.....I could go on and on lol..
Don't they look like a cupcake!!! OMG I'm in love! These are called Electrokill!
They just look like they'd smell like CANDY!

I had to make this picture large enough so you could how fun these are with the little robot and bear figures and letters in the tongue! I LOVE LOVE LOVE...did I mention I love these shoes!

These shoes are a little pricey, most of them are over $100, I guess if I really want my cupcake tennies I will need to save up! LOL maybe I'll sell some more of the cupcakes I make and do some extra haircuts this week! I hope you guys enjoyed this post. We need to treat our feet to some fun sometime...I mean they are what keeps us movin! And we hairstylist say "If our feet are happy, we are happy"

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Childhood Memories

Do you ever just wish you could be a kid again? Some days I do. Thinking about how everything was so much more simple! No cell phones, video games, or facebook. Kids actually went out to play...which consisted of hide and seek outside, riding bikes and catching fireflies! Man how I miss those days! Kids these days don't know what the meaning of "go out and play" means! They say "play what?" USE YOUR IMAGINATION! There's tag, redrover, play in a tree house, have a lemonade stand! My mom and I were going through some of my baby pictures and we came across a few funny pictures of me! I LOVED bubblegum and wanted nothing more than to blow bubbles! How in the world gum ended up in places it did I will never know. Im so glad I had my dad at those times and some peanut butter. I will just explain with a few pictures!

Look at that huge wad in my bangs! I was crying
cause I thought I was in trouble!
A better up close picture of it!
Well what a character was I... nonchalantly picking
my nose waiting for my dad to get this gum out!
Haha my dad basically still looks that same. He
just has a huge beard and NO BANGS! lol
Peanut butter works wonders on gum in
your hair, somehow the oils break down the gum!
YEAH!!!! Now there's a happy girl gum free!

Ya know another thing that I loved and still loved as a kid....SLEEPING! I can sleep anywhere, floor, car, bed, salon chair (I used to take naps in between clients) there can be tv's on radios blaring and blow dryers blowin it doesn't matter I will sleep!
On the floor at my parents house with our old cat Mesha
keeping watch. She was probably planning her attack
on me....because when I was awake I would
torment her, putting clothes in her pulling her tail and
chasing her with a dumptruck!
This was and still is one of my favorite places to sleep. Believe
it or not we still have these chairs! I don't quit fit in it
like this anymore. LOL
And apparently I loved big gaudy jewelry even
when I was young!
Its so much fun watching home movies( on VHS) and looking at old photos(actually printed on photo paper) to remember how things used to be. I just hope one day some of these simple thing in life come back and I can actually teach my kids how to "play!"

Have a great childlike day and remember Keep you gum in your mouth, or carry some peanut butter.